We need eggs.*

August 29, 2008 at 8:37 am (random)

Awhile back I was lamenting Saturday morning cartoons. A few weeks ago, I finally added Shakesville to my daily blogroll and they do a daily 2-minute nostalgia break (that’s usually less than 2-minutes); today’s featured the Monchhichis!

* I’m apparently somewhat stream of conscious when among friends and family, especially when unwinding at the end of a day. One day on the way home (I think it might have been a Friday even) in the midst of a discussion about something else (quite literally in the middle of it) and completely out of the blue I remembered that we were out of eggs and said so. It’s become short hand for when I non-sequitor now (or at least sometimes, if I remember to warn those that I’m talking to).

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Just Say No.

August 21, 2008 at 2:43 pm (causes, domestic violence, equality, random, social policy)

Right.. So, I’ve been more or less “collecting” various posts from sundry sources the last month and change all more or less loosely centered on crime and the criminal justice system. I keep thinking I’m going to write some wonderful post tying them all together, but with the academic year officially starting next week, and things already picking up noticeably in my office (U.S. News results will be released to the public tomorrow, which is always the more or less official start to the craziness that is fall term), combined with plans to do some more involved stuff around the house the next few weeks, I have finally admitted that’s not going to happen. So, what follows are the links I’ve been gathering with as many of my thoughts about them that I can remember and have time to put down in text while waiting for data to compile today.

About a month ago, a post on trends in imprisonment from (where else) Sociological Images picked up on some of the thoughts I’ve had about the ways in which our CJ system is broken for years. There are lots of ways I think the system is horribly broken, but those really aren’t what I wanted to go into (really.. lots of ways.. ). Instead, I wanted to take a moment to think about Nancy Reagan’s War on Drugs and it’s continued impact on our economy. In a nutshell, the War on Drugs made felons of a lot of non-violent people (yes, and quite a few violent ones, but not the majority), clogged the courts and jails with a huge influx of cases and inmates, and effectively removed the vast majority of those people from contributing to the economy. We overcrowded our prisons, requiring increasing tax dollars to be funneled toward them, thereby decreasing the pool of funds available for things like, just to pick on that’s a little near and dear to me, public education. We stamped “felon” on a huge number of people who are now increasingly prohibited from accessing jobs with living wages and opportunities for advancement, simultaneously cutting our own work-force (and ability to compete in an increasingly global market) drastically and reducing the ability of our economy to weather cycles of recession. Don’t they say wars are s’posed to be “good” for the economy..?

More recently, and mostly unrelated to the above, M LeBlanc at Bitch Ph.D. recently wrote about a new law allowing judges in Illinois to require violators of orders of protection to wear GPS tracking devices so that police could better track them. Like M LeBlanc, I’m conflicted by this law - on the one hand, it seems to be a step in the right direction in protecting victims of potentially violent perpetrators, but on the other hand it does so at the expense of those potentially violent perpetrators’ civil liberties - potential is a key word in all that; these are people who have not been convicted who are now allowed to be under near constant police surveillance. M LeBlanc comes to a conclusion that is both heartening in that it’s not the over-the-top rhetoric that sometimes seems pervasive in our society and at the same time utterly sobering and depressing in the enormity of what it means:

The criminal justice system does nothing but create more criminals. We need it, like we need a tourniquet to staunch the bleeding of human dignity from every woman on the planet, but it can not, and will not, solve our problems. These GPS devices will not stop women from being hurt and killed, and they will be another chink in the wall that we put between citizens and the state. The lock and the key, the bracelet and the computer, will not stop or even slow the violence.

For that, we need a revolution.

I was recently chided by a few friends and acquaintances for getting upset about a spoof Guinness ad that I found demeaning and objectifying of women; they found the ad clever and/or amusing and felt that I was making too much of it - reading too much importance into what was clearly intended to be a joke. I wish I could explain to them why their response was exactly the problem, or that M LeBlanc had written this earlier so I could quote it then:

Our society is sick—it is a patriarchy where men are promised power and dominion over women and they are taught that violence is noble, that using force is masculine. It is a pornocracy where children are sexualized, where women’s dismembered bodies are used to sell soap, blue jeans, and hamburgers. It is a market economy where the right to have a young woman rub her naked body on you can be legally purchased in any town or city, but where those same young women are arrested for accepting money for giving a blowjob. It is a world where all things deemed within the fake construct of masculinity are positive attributes, and all those within the construct of femininity are deprecated. Where women make less money, hold far fewer political offices and judgeships, where motherhood is “the most important job in the world,” a privilege for which mothers are treated like utter shit.

Abusers aren’t just bad apples. They are normal dudes. They are the guys you work with, the guys you went to college with, the guys you see in a bar on a Friday night or the grocery store on a Sunday afternoon.

They bear the blame for what they do. But the rest of us do, too. Every guy who stands by and heh-hehs when sexist jokes are made, who views their co-workers or classmates not as colleagues, but as eye-candy, who refuses to acknowledge the misogyny inherent in pornography, is a part of this sick society. Every woman who tut-tuts her friends or neighbors for trying too hard to look sexy, or not trying hard enough, who criticizes other women for being too assertive, who criticizes other men for not being manly enough or showing too much emotion, is a part of this putrid virus.

It’s the pervasiveness of the power structure that is so utterly terrifying - whether it’s patriarchy, or  institutionalized racisim, or our criminal “justice” system, or any of half a million other things.  It’s when we can see it and choose to ignore it without realizing how that just works to reinforce it, when we write off those who rail against the injustice as zealots who are over-reacting.. when we acquiesce to the status quo, or tell ourselves it’s not our problem to solve, or that there’s nothing we can do, or worse that there’s nothing wrong.. those are the things that frustrate me most. Because in truth, to twist another Reagan-era campaign, ignoring these injustices is part of the problem, not the solution.

Right then.. one more jump.. still on the idea of crime, but this one’s going to have to speak mostly for itself, with the warning that it may be triggery for some folks - a video of a purported “news agency” asking abortion protesters who believe abortion should be illegal what punishment women who have abortions should face. Yeah.. not thinking about the consequences of our laws seems to be “as American as apple pie”..

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Atypical

August 20, 2008 at 10:45 am (random)

I don’t normally post things like this here, but I really loved taking this little quiz because most of the pictures are really quite lovely; ironically, I’m really far less attracted to the picture they chose to represent “The Artist”. *shrug*

Your result for The Perception Personality Image Test…

NFPC - The Artist

Nature, Foreground, Big Picture, and Color

You perceive the world with particular attention to nature. You focus on what’s in front of you (the foreground) and how that fits into the larger picture. You are also particularly drawn towards the colors around you. Because of the value you place on nature, you tend to find comfort in more subdued settings and find energy in solitude. You like to deal directly with whatever comes your way without dealing with speculating possibilities or outcomes you can’t control. You are in tune with all that is around you and understand your life as part of a larger whole. You are a down-to-earth person who enjoys going with the flow.

Take The Perception Personality Image Test at HelloQuizzy

And speaking of lovely pictures, this one of the Olympic torch and the (nearly?) full moon is utterly gorgeous! And the photos of the Cartoon skeletons exhibit are fun, but make me want to go see more and I don’t think I can afford to go to Switzerland anytime soon.

Finally, one personal picture of the (finally, almost - need to find the little bracket that guides the doors and reinstall it) finished guest room closet:

(Clickable thumbnail, as usual).

The color is slightly off in this shot - I took it this morning without flash because the camera batteries were about dead - but it’s pretty close. I really like it and can’t wait to get the bedroom closet doors done and the bedroom painted now!

And just for comparison, here’s a “before” shot from when we moved in:

Much better now!

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Just dipping a toe in..

August 19, 2008 at 2:47 pm (house, random)

Things I’ve done since returning from a week’s vacation in Colorado*:

1. Attended my 15-year high school class reunion. Remembered that sometimes just having been in the same place at the same time, even for an extended period of time, doesn’t mean you actually have anything in common with people**.

2. Bought a Select Comfort, aka Sleep Number, bed. Technically, I did this the afternoon before the class reunion, but I figured the reunion was more likely to amuse people. Still, dropping a couple grand on a new bed and bedding still deserves a mention. I don’t have it yet - they’re s’posed to call this week to arrange a time to deliver it and set it up - but I have the bedding, which is good because this afternoon I..

3. Tried to pick out paint colors for the bedroom. Yeah, I’m sort of seriously thinking I need to coordinate the color of the *walls* in my bedroom with my bedding.. *sigh*. The new bedding is a caramel/gold with caramel or olive green sheets (depending on which set is clean at the time). I sort of think this means the wall would not look as good in the blues I’d originally been thinking for the bedroom (I’m worried they’ll be too “cool” - if I’d stayed with the forest green theme I’ve had for years it would have been okay, but not so much with the caramel and olive), and am now sort of surprisingly leaning toward a  pale pale purplish pink (*cringe*) or a pale purplish blue for three of the walls and a dark, deep burgundy for the fourth***.  I have paint samples to bring home tonight to see how they look with the bedding and the bedroom trim, but have hopes of painting *before* the new bed arrives, so a decision is sort of imminent.

4. Repotted the hugely overgrown aloe in my office. It was in serious need of being split so while I was out at Home Despot this afternoon to get paint samples, I picked up a bag of potting soil and split the aloe into six sections, five of which I had pots for. The sixth had grown almost horizontally due to the overcrowding of the original plant, so I pitched it rather than try to repot it.

* Yup, a week. Nope, I didn’t take a single picture. It was beautiful and exactly what I needed, though, just as a vacation should be.

** I s’pose in theory this could be said about family, too. *shrug*

*** Is there any particular “right” way to choose which wall is the accent wall? I’m sort of thinking it should be one of the two closet walls because they’re shorter..

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New math..?

August 2, 2008 at 11:01 am (random)

Apparently, the difference between this:

(As usual, clickable thumbnails.) .. and this: (Yeah, yeah.. it’s a bad picture.. but I just wanted to get an idea of the length.)

.. is a couple of inches. At least.. if you’re the stylist at Cost Cutters I saw yesterday. (I’m not wearing the same cami in both pictures.. the one in the bottom picture sits higher on my back than the one in the top picture.)

It’s astonishing that my reaction when she was finished was “It’s so short!” It’s not really - my hair is still quite long - but it’s rather considerably shorter than I expected when I asked her to take off enough to get rid of the split ends which I said “might mean a couple of inches”. Apparently, a couple now means 8. *sigh*

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Girl crush..

July 24, 2008 at 9:07 am (random)

Love this woman.

My only quibble is that I want to know where she *does* shop..

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Peas and Carrots

July 23, 2008 at 1:53 pm (knitting, random)

I just spent a half hour while working out trying to sing the alphabet to Mary Had a Little Lamb. First in English, then in German. (Try it.. it’s harder than it sounds.)

Sociological Images was on a sex (as opposed to gender-roles) kick (may not be work-safe) last week. I’m still trying to figure out what I think about most of that.

In other news, you may be amazed that there’s progress on a knitting project:

The scary thing.. that’s not even one full skein of yarn. I took this picture yesterday morning before running out the door to work and then knit through Casino Royale (yes, the new one) last night. So there’s about another inch or so completed but not pictured, most of which was done before I attached the second skein of yarn. (Plymouth Galway, for those interested; pretty sure this is the Cobalt colorway, and yes, it really is that electric blue.) I have the pattern memorized - it’s actually very easy and mostly mindless - which makes it decent movie knitting. Which is good given the timeline I have in which to finish it.

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KnittyOtters Getting to Know You Contest

July 15, 2008 at 8:21 am (cables, garden, gifts, knitting, random, sweater) (, )

I’ve a bit of a weakness for otters, so I couldn’t resist KnittyOtter’s Getting to Know You Contest in honor of her 200th post! Congrats!

(For pictures of recent knitting, skip below the questionnaire..)

1.)How long have you been knitting?

Hrm.. really, pr’bly around 8 or 9 years. I learned pr’bly 10-11 years ago but didn’t really start knitting regularly until I went to grad school.

2.) How long have you been knitting socks?

About as long as I’ve been knitting.. pr’bly a year or so less. I was a bit ambitious and decided that I wanted to do my first socks from cotton.. I know better now - both how better to do cotton socks and that wool is generally more forgiving for socks! I also learned *after* making a few pairs where the toes were twisted out of alignment from the heel that I was twisting each and every stitch, which caused the tube of the sock to spiral on itself. Yeah.. not so useful.

3.) What do you do with a problem like Maria?

Let her loose in those hills and lock the doors. She was terribly romantic, and didn’t really strike me as the survivalist type. At most she’d have made it to the first real Alpine snow fall.

4.) What is your all time favorite sock yarn?

I don’t think I have one, which might be sacrilegious. At the moment, I rather like the Trekking that I started working with.. hrm.. several months ago. Should pr’bly get back around to working on those..

5.) Toe Up or Cuff Down?

Either, both? I like the economy of toe up socks, but there are so many patterns that are cuff down that I can’t be bothered to convert, so I’ll just knit them as written.

6.) What’s your favorite color (this week or for all time)? Do you have a color family/season/palette you prefer? Any colors you just can’t stand?

Blue. (Which brings me back to that lovely Trekking.. really need to pick those up again..) For family or palette or whatnot.. jewel tones, fall colors.. deep, saturated colors. I’m not fond of visually striking combinations in most yarns - the pansy colorway I used for my Jaywalkers still sets my teeth on edge a bit - but I love it in nature. And I really love Ruth’s hand-dyed nature-inspired yarns.. they’re all just so gorgeous!

7.) Do you have a pet(s)?

Yes. One (old) little black dog, Jalapeño, or just Jali for short.

8.) Babies: Oven Roasted or Barbecued?

Grilled, actually, with a little garlic and butter. :P

9.) Besides socks what is your favorite type of thing to knit?

Heh. Um, depends on my mood. At the moment, I’ve been stricken with the urge to start sweaters (see below for proof!), but I could just as easily pick up a lace project. *shrug*

10.) What’s your favorite scent?

Mm.. that’s a hard one. There are way too many. Rain. Ocean breezes. Coffee. Campfire smoke. Fajitas. Good wine. Warm skin. Clean sheets dried in the sun. Bacon. Fresh cut grass.

11.) What music are you really loving right now? Like a song or a band?

Went on an Ani kick this weekend while with several friends, but lately I’ve been rather taken with Matt Nathanson, Gaia Consort, and the Paperboys.

12.) How many pairs of socks have you hand knit?

Uh.. Well, I have 8 or 9 in my own sock drawer, and I’ve knit at least that many as gifts, so call it 20ish?

13.) What’s your favorite treat? Salty or Sweet?

Both. There’s a jar of trail mix on my desk that is my ideal snack - peanuts, cashews, almonds, raisins, and M&Ms. As a child, I was inordinately fond of ants on a log and one of my favorite oddities is melted caramel between saltine crackers (think s’mores, but.. different).

14.) What was the most interesting thing you smelled yesterday. Not good or bad necessarily, just the thing that stuck out most so that you actually took notice of it.

Hrm. Shampoo. I’m out of my usual brand so used whatever was handy and I noticed it all day because it wasn’t what I’m used to.

15.) Needles - DPN’s: Wooden, metal or plastic?

Wood or bamboo. Metal is too hard on my hands and plastic just feels wrong. I almost exclusively use Harmony needles these days.

16.) What is your favorite sock pattern that you’ve knit? What do you recommend?

I really liked the 9-to-5 socks, but was also taken enough with Baudelaire to knit it twice.

17.) The last Question: If you were stuck on a deserted island who would you want with you, what knitting would you want with you and would you ever want to leave?

Kim & Tori. And maybe a chef or two. And if the island had good grape stock and clean water, we wouldn’t even need to leave to get more wine. :P

Right then.. since I’m on the topic, thought I’d post a picture to prove that I actually was knitting this weekend past:

(As usual, all photos are clickable thumbnails.)

That is, in fact, the start of a cabled sweater! Yes, it’s mid-July, but I have hopes of completing it in time to be worn this fall. Given my knitting track record of late, that’s being fairly optimistic, but here’s hoping this is just the little shove I need to get back into the swing of things.

And just because I was out in the garden again last evening, I’ll leave you with a few pictures from there:

These are, again, the Hollyhock from the roses back by the garage, but I don’t remember having all four colors in bloom at the same time in the past, so wanted to be sure to capture it.

This is a blue sea.. something. I never remember the right name.. I just call it the Blue Alien Plant because that’s what it looks like. It’s in the front yard, between a couple balloonflowers which should start blooming any day now.

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Monday afternoon quarterbacking

July 14, 2008 at 2:32 pm (random) (, )

This will be another post with lots of linkage and likely some half-thought through commentary.. *but*! coming soon will be actual knitting content!

In addition to scanning daily headlines and blogs, I also receive the weekly update from the Brookings Institute. Most of the time I scan it and delete as I rarely have time or inclination to get worked up about whatever latest foreign policy issue they’re dissecting this week, but this morning, a panel discussion on the role of the courts in making social policy caught my attention. When you first click through from the email, you get to a summary page with just the start of the panel discussion, and I was interested, so I clicked through further to get to the full transcript. And was immediately struck by the fact that of the dozen panelists (or rather 11 panelists plus one moderator), only two were women and all appear* to be Caucasian. Not terribly surprising, but still disappointing. There’s something more in there about the disconnect between those making/enforcing.debating policy and those living under it, but I’m not sure I can pull it apart right now.

Ugh. “I don’t usually duck an issue.” (via Bitch PhD) Um.. much.

I’ve seen the Pamper’s commercials promoting their apparently new program for contributing to childhood vaccinations “babies in need” - which are all coincidentally, predominantly babies of color with mothers in traditionally ethnic clothing - when you buy their products and had a very cynical reaction, but hadn’t been able to focus enough to write it out, so instead, you get the link to Sociological Images where they say what I was thinking quite well for the most part. I’d pr’bly add though that there are quite a number of babies in need right here in our own country, especially with the recent restrictions in SCHIP funding, but we seem to have some sort of puritanical mental block when it comes to helping our own.

And picking up a couple links that would have gone very well with this post, Sociological Images discusses the Illustrated BMI, which I believe originated with the folks at Shapely Prose (link found from this post, which is also interesting in how it tries to figure out why some states are more fat than others). Similarly, this one on worshiping your corporeal temple fits the theme I was trying to strike.

* Please note the “appear to be” - I don’t know any of the panelists racial or ethnic identity for certain and it’s possible that at least one of the panelists is a person of color.

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Celebrating beauty.

July 10, 2008 at 1:27 pm (random, spirals, tattoo) (, , )

This will be the last week I wear my skin as I was born in it. No, I’m not doing anything drastic; just a tattoo. At first, even just a smallish one - a celtic knotwork full moon (inspiration, though with a pentagram in the center) in the upper middle of my back - but with plans eventually for the phases of the moon (5 in total) across the top of my back and a celtic knotwork tree of life underneath. In this day and age, ink is nothing unusual, but it is still a permanent dyeing of the skin and as such, it’s taken me several years to commit to both whether I wanted that, what I wanted.. and where.

The where is sort of the start of this little spiral, mostly because I’m rather firmly in my mid-30s now and it’s not like I walk around regularly baring my full back, so the idea of a tattoo that not only would I never be able to see directly myself, but that would go unseen (mostly - I wear enough tank tops that the center full moon will be seen fairly regularly) by most everyone else, might seem a little bit of a waste. Except that.. it’s my body and how I choose to celebrate it is really my choice. There are reasons for each element in the design that are personal and meaningful and having them indelibly inked into my flesh has a depth and symbolism of meaning. Which, by all accounts, ought to be reason enough.

But.. this wouldn’t be a spiral if it were. *smile* The promotional materials for the movie The Red Violin included a woman’s bare back with the markings of a violin; that picture is so sensual and beautiful and it really does exemplify the beauty I see in my own body. When I was younger - and lighter by at least 2 stone, though I’ve never been particularly lithe or slender - I had the good fortune of having fewer body image issues. I lived in a somewhat open dorm in college where bodies and nakedness were simply parts of life, not status symbols or objects of power (not always, but generally) and that got me a long ways toward not only accepting my body, but loving it. Yes, I was still self-conscious - I really don’t believe there’s a woman who makes it through junior high school that isn’t on some level for the rest of her life* - but I also knew my body was beautiful (and now have the benefit of hindsight.. I’m sure then I wouldn’t have agreed as easily).

And then I got older.. and got sedentary and stopped taking as good care of myself. And gained weight. And while I still see the beauty in my body, I see it masked. I no longer see without intentional focus the arch of my throat, the curve of my hip, the slope of my shoulder, or the fall of my hair down my back. While I will never see what others see - for better or for worse - I now seem to only be able to see what, by my own definition, mars the beauty of my body. That’s a psychological shift in my head from a dozen years ago and it’s one I’m working to combat - not by necessarily changing my body (though I am working to take better care of my health**), but changing how I see it, or maybe just what I see about it.

Will this tattoo be a miraculous event that will suddenly reset my brain? No, of course not. But it is a conscious recognition of the fact that my body is beautiful and healthy and strong and that I *should* be celebrating it. It will be a reminder to take care of my physical self, as well as my mental and emotional selves. Even though I won’t be able to see it unaided, it will always be there, a part of me, a visual manifestation of a part of me. It will be a purposeful reminder of those things that ground me, that form the basis of what I’ll call my soul for lack of a better word***.

And in the end.. that is definitely worth celebrating.

* Pre-teen and teen-aged girls are terribly, horribly cruel to each other (I’d imagine boys are, too, but I have no direct experience with that). If there were one thing I would choose to spare girls from that I think had the potential to move society forward as a whole, it would be the hell we put each other through during adolescence. Those are growing pains we would all be better for not having to endure.

** There’s a history of degenerative joints in my family, so making sure I get enough calcium and take care of my bones is important and something I’ve not been good about doing. By the same token, there are histories of both diabetes and heart disease, and I’ve gotten out of the habit of eating vegetables regularly and am far too good at coming up with excuses not to exercise. These aren’t things I need to do to meet some societally imposed ideal of beauty, but rather to keep myself healthy.

*** Atheist. I don’t have a soul (you might.. that’s up to you to decide). Do have a consciousness, though, that is independent of any subset of thoughts or actions or emotions, but there’s no good secular nomenclature for the totality of one’s self, so I’ll use the convenient, though technically incorrect for me, theological word.

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